I write because I can't perform.
Growing up, in junior high and high school, I was in and out of choir, dance, drama, various stage shows, talent shows, cheer, and even choreographing and directing a couple things.
AS A STUDENT.
At age 17 I was running rehearsals with a 50 person choir made up of my peers while our director was out sick for two weeks not a month before our scheduled concert.
Then in college I was part of a performing group that did heavy choreography along with singing, I took multiple classes that required performing as the "final exam," I was a chorus member (dancer/singer) in various stage musicals including Kiss Me, Kate, and The Music Man, as well as playing Little Red Riding Hood in Into the Woods.
Then in 2005, I put my life on hold to serve a full-time mission for my church for eighteen months. This was a great experience, and I'm so happy I went. I was able to use my musical talent to touch the hearts of people I taught.
When I returned home in summer 2007, I met my husband. We immediately clicked and were married in December of that year. Since I was going to school, we were both required to work so we could afford it. Then in 2009 we found out I was pregnant. Our first son, Monkey, joined us in December, and I couldn't have been happier.
|Monkey! 2.5 years old|
So I didn't audition.
Then, in the fall of 2010, I started a family blog. Just for fun, mostly, I didn't think much of it. It soon became clear to me that people were actually reading what I wrote, and they liked it. They commented on it, they thought I was funny, clever, witty, or thoughtful... and I honestly couldn't really believe it.
In March 2011, after a number of experiences that led me to it, I began to write my novel. The first draft was terrible... only about 50,000 words, and choppy. But I'd written it.
During this time, I brought up performing again. And again, we decided that the timing wasn't right.
So I kept writing.
|Ribbit at 6 weeks old!|
Do you see it? I'm a wife, and a mother. Those things are the very first and foremost in my life. Everything else takes a back seat to them, and I have no problem with that. But this fact remains: I have something in me that simply MUST create. I don't think I'd survive without the opportunity to put a part of myself out into the world whether through music, dance, writing, or something else. I never thought of being a writer... I never really enjoyed English class, or putting an essay together, or anything of the sort. Music was my life. But when that had to be sacrificed, when I COULDN'T go out and perform without leaving my children, my subconscious found another arena.
So here I am.
I'm a wife, a mommy, and a writer.
That's who I am. That's why I write. If you're a writer, why do YOU write?